Untill..Forever

I don't know what to say, " I am sorry I asked you to be there. Of course you have a life and can't be stuck with me forever." 

" are you out of your Mind when you say this, I would always be there for you, what I meant was I cant be there physically for you anymore. " 

" what are you trying to say?? I am really confused now please explain." 

" what I mean is I won't be around you anymore as I have got the job I had applied for in the U.S." 

" wow that's huge. Congrats I am so happy for you." I give him a hug. I am genuinely really happy for him he has been really stressed about this job for a long time now. 

" so when is the party?? You can't get away with just a ice cream this time. I hope you know that?" 

" that is what we were celebrating today actually. And of course i will treat you. " 

" yeah you better but once I am back from my vacation next month will plan for a nice dinner or lunch at one of your favorite restaurant. " 

" no we would rather go to the cafe where we met for the firs time" 

" hmm yeah but I thought as we would be meeting after almost a month so we could do lunch or dinner and spend some more time as we would have so much to catch up on. Don't you think??" 

" hmm yeah sure let me park your car first, we can always Plan this latter." 

" oh yeah it's quite late. I am so excited for you that completely lost the track of time." 

We get out of the car and say our goodbyes.  

I am about to get into my home when Araash calls me, " Sarah, wait a second I need to talk to you." 

" now ? Can't it wait till tomm ?? "

" no it can't.  I need to tell u something before I choose to be a coward again." 

" now I am really confused what are you talking about? Just say it sooner and get it over with I am really worried." 

" I am sorry I can't meet you again." 

" what why? What's wrong?" 

" just please listen to me before I chicken out again. Ok?" 

" ok yeah" 

" I can't meet you again cause I have to leave for the U.S. Next week and I have a lot of paper work to complete. I won't get time to meet you in between all the formalities to be competed.  I hope you understand. So this is the final goodbye." 

" I don't understand how is it possible does it not take time to do all the formalities ? And what to do u mean by final goodbye? Of course we can meet before you leave. " 

" yeah I know but as this is a urgent opening everything is being fast tracked and..." 

" wait a second what if I had not met you today? Would you have left without meeting me? Or even telling me that your leaving the country?" 

" of course not I would have met you even if for a short while. I was just waiting for you go get in touch with Me again. I had decided to give you two more days and then would have contacted you myself as I would running out of time. " 

" I don't know what to say, other then that I will miss you terribly." 

" same here Sarah more then you would ever know. The last few days that we have not spoken has made me realize quite a few things. I have to be honest with you. I think about you a lot. All the time, actually. In the morning,at night,in the middle of the day. It's you. It's just you." 

I am just lost in his words. I don't know what to say. Is he confessing what I am thinking he is? I just decide to hear him out. 

"After seeing you today I have realized that it's going to be very difficult to say good bye to you, I know it's going to be weird for you, but it's at the best interest for both of us. Now I am going to give you a hug and say goodbye and you have to promise me not to stop me, always remember me with a smile. " 

" you will keep in touch won't you?" 

" yeah I will, but you know how it will be once I get there will be busy settling down so won't be available all the time, but when ever you need me just buzz me and I will be there for you." 

"Ohh I am going to miss you so much." I hug him really hard I don't want to leave him.we stand there for a long time Araash doesn't move me until it's been ages. 

" Sarah I really need to go now, it's really late for you too please open the door and get in so I can leave." 

I fumble with my keys as I can't see straight with all the unshed tears in my eyes I can't even find the key hole that's when he hold my hand and pushes the key into the keyhole and opens the door for me.

He turns me into him and kisses my forehead gives me his dazzling smile, even through the my hazzy vision I can see that he is struggling to say something. I don't push him but give him a hug and say bye and tell him again how much il miss him. He just bends down and whispers in my ears I Love you! 

Iam stunned and can't form a word. He just pushes me into the house and closes the door and leaves.

Nothing can come bettween U & I



I'm having the best time with my friends. What a difference it makes, to just get a glimpse of a person you like and it changes your entire mood. Me and my friends have been dancing and drinking like the world is going to come to an end. In the process we have successfully caught the attention of many guys around us. Somehow I, have noticed that no one has approached us through out the evening.

 

After dancing for a long time I, decide to take a break, so I go to the bar and sit by the corner and order a drink. Just when I'm about to take the first sip of my drink a guy approaches me and introduces himself. He is really smart but a bit cocky, I  immediately take a dislike to him. Slowly he starts invading my private space I try to tell him to back off but he wouldn't. "Just one dance please he says, common I have been noticing you for long, I would really love to dance with you, just once please."... "  I'm seriously not interested." I respond.  Just when he is about to open his mouth to say something else, the voice I am dying to hear since two days comes from the side " The lady said NO" And he casually holds my shoulder and kisses me on my forehead. " everything's fine??" He asks me, and looks at the guy. The guy gets the message and leaves immediately.

 

" Hi" he says, " How have you been??"

" Hi, I have been fine... How about you??"

" Good to see you after so long and like this, I'm really happy to see this side of you, fun and carefree. I really had a tough time holding off guys from approaching you tonite, somehow this one beat me to it."

 

" Thank you" ,I reply.

 

He continues " And you really look very beautiful today, I am sure all the guys in this club would agree to that, infact most of my friends were unable to take their eyes off you."

 

" You just being sweet now, thanks anyways." I respond.

 

My friends have all come back and join me at the bar, so I introduce them to Araash he gives them all his dazzling smile and they all literally swoon, he is soon surrounded by my friends and he is in his element enthralling them. I can't stop smiling looking at his face he is so handsome. He is so friendly that he easily fits into any group just like he is now talking to everyone as if he knows them for ages.

It's really late by the time we all decide to leave.  We all say our goodbyes and since I have had a few drinks, Araash decides to drive me home. Finally we are alone, there is so much that needs to be said but so less time. As it is past midnight there isn't much traffic to delay the short journey to my house. All too soon we are parked outside my house. We both have not said a single word the entire journey and now I have to leave . Just when I am about to say something he beats me to it " There is something really important that I need to tell you Sarah".

 

" Ok, then please do" I reply.

 

" This is not the right place or time to say any of this but I can't waste anymore time without telling you." He responds

 

" Ok then just say what ever it is quickly as I too need to say a few things too". I say anxiously.

 

"OK, you go first then", he says.

 

" I have thought  a lot about you. I am sure you know this already, that you mean a lot to me, you are more then a friend to me, you're really special and important to me. And whatever has happened between us was inevitable,  I accept that.  So I don't blame you or myself for that. Having said that, it doesn't mean that we can continue to behave as we please. We should respect the boundaries that I am limited to as I'm married.

"Did I make any sense??" I ask him...

 

" Yes,  a little, but of course you're right, I completely agree with you. "

 

" Now, I need you to promise me something Aarash, "

 

" Ok, what is it " he asks.

 

" Promise me you would never leave me you will always be there for me no matter what always.... forever."

 

He is just staring blankly ahead not saying a word, so I nudge him.

" Hello, what's the matter ?? Is it too much that I'm asking for ?" Please say something"... I'm waiting eagerly for a reply.

 

" I am sorry. I can't give you what you're asking for. " he responds...