Untill..Forever

I don't know what to say, " I am sorry I asked you to be there. Of course you have a life and can't be stuck with me forever." 

" are you out of your Mind when you say this, I would always be there for you, what I meant was I cant be there physically for you anymore. " 

" what are you trying to say?? I am really confused now please explain." 

" what I mean is I won't be around you anymore as I have got the job I had applied for in the U.S." 

" wow that's huge. Congrats I am so happy for you." I give him a hug. I am genuinely really happy for him he has been really stressed about this job for a long time now. 

" so when is the party?? You can't get away with just a ice cream this time. I hope you know that?" 

" that is what we were celebrating today actually. And of course i will treat you. " 

" yeah you better but once I am back from my vacation next month will plan for a nice dinner or lunch at one of your favorite restaurant. " 

" no we would rather go to the cafe where we met for the firs time" 

" hmm yeah but I thought as we would be meeting after almost a month so we could do lunch or dinner and spend some more time as we would have so much to catch up on. Don't you think??" 

" hmm yeah sure let me park your car first, we can always Plan this latter." 

" oh yeah it's quite late. I am so excited for you that completely lost the track of time." 

We get out of the car and say our goodbyes.  

I am about to get into my home when Araash calls me, " Sarah, wait a second I need to talk to you." 

" now ? Can't it wait till tomm ?? "

" no it can't.  I need to tell u something before I choose to be a coward again." 

" now I am really confused what are you talking about? Just say it sooner and get it over with I am really worried." 

" I am sorry I can't meet you again." 

" what why? What's wrong?" 

" just please listen to me before I chicken out again. Ok?" 

" ok yeah" 

" I can't meet you again cause I have to leave for the U.S. Next week and I have a lot of paper work to complete. I won't get time to meet you in between all the formalities to be competed.  I hope you understand. So this is the final goodbye." 

" I don't understand how is it possible does it not take time to do all the formalities ? And what to do u mean by final goodbye? Of course we can meet before you leave. " 

" yeah I know but as this is a urgent opening everything is being fast tracked and..." 

" wait a second what if I had not met you today? Would you have left without meeting me? Or even telling me that your leaving the country?" 

" of course not I would have met you even if for a short while. I was just waiting for you go get in touch with Me again. I had decided to give you two more days and then would have contacted you myself as I would running out of time. " 

" I don't know what to say, other then that I will miss you terribly." 

" same here Sarah more then you would ever know. The last few days that we have not spoken has made me realize quite a few things. I have to be honest with you. I think about you a lot. All the time, actually. In the morning,at night,in the middle of the day. It's you. It's just you." 

I am just lost in his words. I don't know what to say. Is he confessing what I am thinking he is? I just decide to hear him out. 

"After seeing you today I have realized that it's going to be very difficult to say good bye to you, I know it's going to be weird for you, but it's at the best interest for both of us. Now I am going to give you a hug and say goodbye and you have to promise me not to stop me, always remember me with a smile. " 

" you will keep in touch won't you?" 

" yeah I will, but you know how it will be once I get there will be busy settling down so won't be available all the time, but when ever you need me just buzz me and I will be there for you." 

"Ohh I am going to miss you so much." I hug him really hard I don't want to leave him.we stand there for a long time Araash doesn't move me until it's been ages. 

" Sarah I really need to go now, it's really late for you too please open the door and get in so I can leave." 

I fumble with my keys as I can't see straight with all the unshed tears in my eyes I can't even find the key hole that's when he hold my hand and pushes the key into the keyhole and opens the door for me.

He turns me into him and kisses my forehead gives me his dazzling smile, even through the my hazzy vision I can see that he is struggling to say something. I don't push him but give him a hug and say bye and tell him again how much il miss him. He just bends down and whispers in my ears I Love you! 

Iam stunned and can't form a word. He just pushes me into the house and closes the door and leaves.